I am Chasing Gods and the whispers of the poor
Watching sorrows decay and others come to life
Anticipating a young rain to give me an ancient wisdom
A fresh death between my hands, a foreign land,
And a hope waiting behind locked doors
My eyes are squinting against
The strong light of your memories
And I am trying to accustom my heart to distance and a
Future devoid of your hoarse, kind voice
I am trying to put my fire down
And be content with a candlelight you left for my
Inevitable path towards the sky
For a book of tears on earth
Your warm words flattered me, grandfather
Filled my bag with pearls and emeralds
While our smiles and the trail of silence after
Discovered and rediscovered
The joys of being akin
A garden for heal
From one heartbeat to the other,
One child to another
Your fatherhood extended
A sacred gift from a silent God
Responding to me
Holding me
I am traveling alone now
Chasing translucent landscapes
Your prayer keeping me company
An angel over my thoughts,
An amulet when I get lost in an interior desert
But I want to rub lotion on your dry skin
Kiss your forehead
Place your rosemary on the side table
Feel pleased when you introduce me as
Your beautiful granddaughter
I want to watch you lowering your gaze
On my grandma's face
A dusk, a holy flight
I know my tears won't moisten your drought grave
My words won't bring you back
And the truth is, your breath is the softest
A heaven would breathe
Your soul, as promised, resting between
The hands of the divine
So I am not writing you
I am too deprived for that
Neither resisting your death
I am just trying to tell you I am sorry
I am five years late
For chasing my ego
And missing much of you
I am running to you now, can you feel me?
My words elegies on your grave
My stars your bones
My arms absorbing the tears of your loved ones
A palette of dark colors
My eyes are searching for my beloved
A naked dream, a russet Nile, a home
And my body is an old song you hummed
The road is lonely, yes…
But I will not fold my wings
Because you loved me
Much more than I thought.
I will not fold my wings